Monday, March 29, 2010

We have a Winner!



I was able to draw our winner tonight. I know there were so many of you that could really use this toaster, but I drew this name fair and square. The Lord knows who needs this and we will leave this in the hands of the Lord. I am so thankful to CSN to have the opportunity to be a blessing to someone.
Without further ado......The winners name is:


Congrats goes out ot Marci J. She is the proud new owner of a Hamilton Beach Toaster.
I have sent you an email and I will need your information back within 48 hours or we will have to do a redraw.
Hamilton Beach Classic Chrome 2 Slice Toaster - 22600

Hamilton Beach Classic Chrome 2 Slice Toaster - 22600



Tuesday, March 23, 2010

The Verdict is In

My poor man has had a rough two weeks. He went in to the hospital on Tuesday night March 9th with chest pains. The doctors ran every test you can imagine, then finally they did a heart cath on Thursday morning and we were able to leave the hospital thinking all was going to be ok, by Tuesday of the following week his arm (where they did a new proceedure heart cath) was in serious pain and turning red and holding heat so that night he went back to the hospital and they kept him from Tuesday til Sunday afternoon with a serious infection in his arm.
We are home now but in the midst of the storm he finally got news that everything had been approved and what we have been fighting for, well over 19 months was now coming to an end. Praise the Lord.
God is so good and I have pondered what this year and a half has brought to me in my life. It has been hard and at times I felt I was going to fall apart, but the thing I have learned about the Lord is that he has begun a good work in me.
Philippians 1:6
Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath BEGUN A GOOD WORK in you will perform [it] until the day of Jesus Christ:
God will never let his children be utterly cast down, he lovingly comforts you with his words and constantly draws you back to a right mind set. He has been so faithful to me even when I have not been so faithful to him.
God promised in his word that with that work that he began in me he will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ. He never gives up on his children, the goodness of God leadeth a man to repentance.
During this year I have been stripped of all self righteousness, He has shown me that I had put a lot of stock in the things I was doing for him, almost a works mind set. I was trying to find favor in God's eyes and in the eyes of man by doing all of these (RIGHT) things. ......visitation, soul winning, teaching, bible reading, prayer life. Do not get me wrong these things are right to do, but if you are doing for the wrong reasons they are meriting you nothing in the eyes of God and the reward of man thinking you are spiritual is all the reward you will get.
These works do not make one spiritual, allowing God to work in you and through you makes one Spiritual.
In Galation 5 we see that Paul was telling the Galations that they had put themselves back under the law thinking it was going to merit them something, We tend to try to put on Spirituality ourselves. We think if we do all of these things then we will be spiritual, then you have a Christian that is frustrated, spinning their wheels, and feeling like they never measure up.
If you take an apple seed and lay it on a table, it will never grow. If you just put it in the ground, it may grow but be weak, if you put it in good soil chances of a good tree increase, But if you put it in good soil, water it, place fertilizer around it chances are soon your tree will be bearing fruit.
Not one thing you can do can make that tree bear fruit, it is natural process of a healthy tree.
We are trying to bear fruit ourselves on our tree, we are trying to produce something that is God's job. We cannot put on Spirituality, it is something that God does through us.



We must water the tree.
Ephesians 5:26
That he might sanctify and cleanse it with the WASHING of water by the word,
Through watering the tree and making sure it has the nutrients it needs it will be a natural process. By reading God's word we are watering our soul and the natural process will bear fruit.

Having been put in a situation where all of these things I was doing were taken from me I had to take a good look at who I was and where I stood with God. In my thinking with all of those things making me right with him and now none of those I have to offer, I felt defeated and totally at a loss. I have come to realize with the comfort of my Saviour and his loving working in my life that he loves me and excepts me without all of my righteousness being presented at his feet, all of my righteousness is as filthy rags in his sight.
Now having gone through this trial, I can now offer these things out of a love for him and not wanting a love from him. He loves me already, I do not have to earn his love.

Galatians 3:3
Are ye so foolish? having begun in the Spirit, are ye now MADE PERFECT by the flesh?
We are not made perfect by the things we do and that is not what merits us Spirtuality, it is Christ working in us.
Philippians 2:13 For it is God which worketh in you both to will and to do of his good pleasure.

We are made perfect by the Spirit and yet we try to make ourselves perfect.
I have learned to stop and listen and try to be obedient to the Lord's leading.
He will never leave you nor forsake you.
I am so thankful for the Lord teaching me to follow him and to stop trying to establish my own righteousness. I am all for those things I mentioned earlier and I will continue to do those things in my walk with God but like I said earlier I can now do them out of a love for my Saviour and not trying to obtain a love from my Saviour.

I love the LORD because he first loved me.


Rebecca


Thursday, March 18, 2010

CSN Giveaway coming on my blog.

CSN is an awesome presence on the web they have so many sites that have everything you would need to decorate a home. I have found these awesome counter stools and table and chairs at their web site allbarstools.com, one of CSN many online websites. Please go and browse around this would be a perfect place to spend that tax return that you have recently received or will be receiving.


These are just a few items that I personally like.
I have always been drawn to the rustic look, but have never brought myself to go that direction with my decorating. This stool caught my eye as I was searching their web pages.



This is the style that I usually end up going with. This stool would look so beautiful at a breakfast nook. My children have always like to sit at counters with high bar stools.

This dining room set would look beautiful in my dining room and the thing I like about it is that with a big family sometimes you can feel like you are so far away from each other at a big table, but this one seems to pull the family together. I am all about pulling the family together. As my children are growing up and getting those significant others our family will just continue to grow. This would be a perfect gathering spot for the holidays.



I have a giveaway posted here on my blog. CSN has so graciously offered an item from one of their sites. Be sure and stop over and enter my giveaway for this awesome Hamilton Beach Classic Toaster
Hamilton Beach Classic Chrome 2 Slice Toaster - 22600
I could spend hours literally searching their sites. As a matter of fact last night I did. With the March MADNESS that is going on i
n our house right now, I thought I would search their sites for some Kansas Jayhawk items. OH WOW, look what I found. Can it get any cuter than that Jayhawk Bird? Needless to say the daughter feel in love with these few items.
This may have to be the place I do some Christmas shopping.

Fathead Kansas Jayhawks Logo Wall Graphic
Fathead Kansas Jayhawks Logo Wall Graphic
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Broad Bay Cotton Kansas University Jayhawks Apron
Broad Bay Cotton Kansas University Jayhawks Apron


Broad Bay Cotton Kansas University Jayhawks Purse
Broad Bay Cotton Kansas University Jayhawks Purs
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Tervis Tumbler University of Kansas 12 oz. Tumbler (Set of 4)
Tervis Tumbler University of Kansas 12 oz. Tumbler (Set of 4)


Have you ever searched a site and then wanted to go back and find what you had searched for earlier but can never seem to find it?
One of my favorite things about the CSN site is that they have a widget on their sidebar that shows all of the items that you previously searched, wow, that has helped me out several times while searching their sites.

Go check out their sites for yourself, you just might find what you have been looking for in other places.
Here are a few of their other websites.
www.allmodern.com,
www.diningroomsdirect.com
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www.cookware.com
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www.bedroomfurniture.com
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Disclaimer
I did not receive anything from CSN for this post or giveaway.

CSN Giveaway ends March 29, 2010

I received an email this week and was asked if I would be willing to do a giveaway on my blog, I was thrilled to offer this great giveaway to my followers.
So here is your chance to win this awesome toaster.
http://www.cookware.com/Hamilton-Beach-22600-HMB1168.html
Hamilton Beach Classic Chrome 2 Slice Toaster - 22600

Hamilton Beach Classic Chrome 2 Slice Toaster - 22600

I will be doing a drawing from my little basket on Monday, March 29th. I will post the winner on Tuesday .
First Manditory Entry:

All you have to do is visit the CSN site and come back and tell me what you would like to have from one of their sites. Make sure you leave your email address in your comment and leave a separate comment for each entry.

www.allmodern.com,
www.diningroomsdirect.com
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www.cookware.com
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www.bedroomfurniture.com
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~Tell me something the Lord has done for you lately

~Follow me on Google Friend or tell me you are a follower already.
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I did not receive anything for this giveaway. Just wanted to be a blessing to those who stop by.



Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Update on the Hearing

Well, today was the day. Mike had his hearing this morning at 9:00 a.m. When he came home he said the lawyer told him that it went great and that he was 100% sure that Mike won the case.
We will not know for sure until the letter comes in the mail stating that fact, but this lawyer does these cases all the time and his assistant told us that he will be able to tell which way it went after the trial is over.
Most people when they file for disability they have an issue (singular) In Mike's case he has had work on both shoulders, both knees, both hands, lower back and upper back. The judge asked him just a few questions about his daily pain and said "That is all I need to hear." Mike lives everyday of his life in constant pain. After looking over Mike's medical history, I think the judge had already made up his mind before he got there. Praise the Lord!
I am so thankful for all the prayers of God's saints. I am thankful we can see light at the end of this trial. Please continue to pray for us as we live each day, the lawyer did say it could take up to another 2 months before we had any income coming in. God has not failed us over this past 18 months, no doubt he will not start now.

God Bless and Thank you once again for all your prayers.

Rebecca

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Tomorrow is the Big DAY! Mike hearing is finally here!

We have been waiting for quite sometime now. Feb. 17th is the day my husband has his hearing for his disability case. He will go before a judge with all of his medical records and with his history of being disabled and his fate will be in their hands, well that is what the world thinks, We know that ultimately our fate is in the Lords hands.
Proverbs 21:1
The king's heart is in the HAND OF THE LORD, as the rivers of water: he turneth it whithersoever he will.

I am so thankful that I have my trust in the Lord and not in the world. I am thankful that he has carried us through this last year and a half and has proved himself and taken care of us through everything. I have to say that I have not always been the good example of how a Christian should act through all of this, but I am so thankful that God loves me inspite of my wicked self and because of his Only begotten Son Jesus. Not by works of righteousness that we have done but according to his mercy he saved us. Thank you Lord.

Please pray over the next couple of days for God's perfect will in this whole matter. One way or another this trial will soon be over. The unknown is the worst part. I would like to say I am ready to accept whatever God's will is for our lives, but I have found through out this last year that what I thought was in my heart was not really there (It is easy preaching to say I trust the Lord with all my heart but not easy living at times) and he has allowed some yucky stuff to come to the surface. When Jeremiah said
Jeremiah 17:9
The heart is deceitful above all things, and DESPERATELY WICKED: who can know it?
He knew what he was talking about (OF COURSE HE DID). The minute you think you are above acting or responding a certain way, HOLD ON, cause that is when it will be brought to the surface to show you what you are made up of.
Without Christ we are nothing, with Christ's help we can do all things.
With Christ's help, I will except his will for our lives. Just pray that all things work together for his good and that he will have his perfect will in our lives.

I will try to keep everyone updated on how things went. We are not sure we will know anything tomorrow or not.
Thank you in advance for your prayers.

Rebecca

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Have you ever Doubted whether you will go to Heaven when you die?

If any of you have read my testimony, you know that I was raised in a Christian home and I struggled with whether I was really saved or not until the age of 25. I really believe that this is a huge struggle in many peoples lives. My husband and I both went through that and even our own children have made several professions but hopefully have it settled now.
Today I listened to a message that makes salvation so clear, I really appreciate the time Bro Travis Burke took in making the plan of Salvation so clear and understandable. It is a terrible thing to doubt and to worry about your eternal soul but there is nothing more satisfying than to be at total peace with the Lord knowing that your eternal home is in Heaven.
It seems so appropriate to always use my favorite verse in Titus 1:2 ....God cannot lie.
If he says it, he means it and he cannot waver from his truth. We just have to trust it and believe it. We just have to place ourselves in his hands and trust his ability to keep us and seal us and take us all the way to heaven.

I am so thankful that on May 7th 1992 I did just that and I have not doubted since. It is as sure as I am sitting here in this chair and typing on my laptop that I know that I know that I know I am saved and sealed until the day of redemption.
Praise the Lord that when he does save you, there is no doubt that he has done so. If you doubt than this would be a good time to examine and take a few minutes and listen to Bro. Travis preach this awesome message explaining the simple plan of Salvation.

Listen here to his message on SALVATION
Pastor Travis Burke
Cozaddale Baptist Temple

Pastor Travis has several messages on Sermons Audio
Stop by and listen to his other messages.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Follow Friday Once again, Join right in!

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Monday, January 25, 2010

Have you ever felt like trials are just to heavy?

We are down to just a couple of weeks left until the hearing and it just seems like things are just getting heavier. It seems like the tempter and the flesh is working overtime in my life.
First off I will just let you in on a new diminsion added to our trial. It has been raining for days and yesterday morning we got up and got ready for church as normal, off to church we went, had a great dinner for our pastors wife for her birthday after the morning services we came home intending on taking the normal Sunday afternoon nap. Seth went downstairs to get a change of clothes and from the bottom of the steps I heard "UH OH! THE BASEMENT IS FLOODED!" Well, thinking, Ok, a little water can be cleaned up and as I ascended the stairs, I was shocked to see approx 3 inches of water covering the whole basement floor. I could not believe my eyes.
I do thank God that it has been a little warmer than normal, in the 50's so the water wasn't blistering cold. I began to look around and did not realize how many boxes I had stacked on the floor of the basement. It made me sick to my stomach.
After working hard through the evening, we were able to get the water out of the basement by sucking it up with a shop vac.

In this picture you can see the mud that came in with all the water. These pictures do it no justice.




These are some of the boxes that were filled with stuff that is now either drying out or had to be pitched.Here are some of the tubs that were downstairs that have had to be brought up and gone through to make sure they did not gather water through any cracks on the bottom, I had two tubs that were cracked and things got wet inside the tubs.

More pictures of stuff that just had to be pitched, a lot of this stuff were things that I had saved from my children's school days or things that they had saved, reports they had written or special notes they had written to me or to others, you know those things that mothers save that really probably matter to no one else but to the mother.These are boxes of our books thankfully a lot of the boxes were just put up on shelves but I had about three boxes on the floor of our ministry books. They are now all spread out drying out.

This picture shows how deep the water was on the wall, I do not know why I didn't get pictures while the floor was standing in water, I guess it was more important to get the water out of the basement than to take the time to take pics.Now I posted all of these pictures to say this. I was reading in my devotions last night and this morning in James chapter 1 (which I was encouraged by a friend to do so) In James 1 it says,
Verse

2My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations;

3Knowing [this], that the trying of your faith worketh patience.

4But let patience have [her] perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

5If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all [men] liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.

Now how can I count it all joy when falling into divers temptations?

You say how is this temptations? Have you ever been tempted to get upset with your situtation? or even angry? or short tempered? Well, that is the temptation, God says to count it all joy! I have not counted it all joy at times while going through these trials in my life. Then I read if any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally. Have you ever just lost sight of everthing you have been taught and you loose sight of how you should react in situtations? or actually how to apply what you have learned to your life during a situation. God said if you lack wisdom during your divers temptations ask for wisdom. He said he would give it to you liberally.

Wisdom is The right use or exercise of knowledge, This is wisdom in act, effect, or practice

5. In Scripture theology, wisdom is true religion; godliness; piety; the knowledge and fear of God, and sincere and uniform obedience to his commands. This is the wisdom which is from above. Psa 90. Job 28.

It is the putting into practice that which you have learned. Putting feet to your knowledge, practicing what you preach if you will.


I have to say, I have used that verse for many different instances in my life, lack of wisdom in situations. (wisdom on a test, or wisdom on something I have read or even taught my students to claim that verse for their tests in school) but I have to say that I have never considered it for wrong attitudes in situtations. If you look at the context of the scripture he is telling us to ask for wisdom when we fall into divers temptations. When we are tempted to sin against him and we have seem to lost the smarts on how to do right, ask for wisdom, I honestly had never really considered the context of that verse. Ask him for the know how to practice what you preach.

It seems like when things begin to go wrong in our lives, when the trying of our faith is put to the test, the doubts come, the confusion comes, the wondering what is God doing in our lives? but God said if any of you lack wisdom during these times let him ask of God. When things get really rough then Satan or your flesh will tempt you to walk away from God and stop spending time with him, but God says ask me for wisdom to get through this and I will give it to you liberally.

The counting all joy thing is very hard for me at times but just like salvation, It takes faith just to trust the Lord and allow him to give the joy you need to sustain you vs 6But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering , remember he says in Nehemiah 8:10 ....for the JOY OF THE LORD IS your strength. You know it is all just stuff, and it is all going to burn up one day anyway, so why do we hold so tight to the things of this world? We need to be looking ahead to eternal stuff and not temperal stuff. We put so much stock in stuff bringing us joy and happiness, when stuff is not what brings real joy, leaning on the Lord and trusting him with your whole life, come what may and letting patience have its perfect work that is what brings true happiness and true joy.

God does not want us to be a double minded man, He wants us to be sure of him and to have faith in him and his ability to carry us through our storms.

6But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed.

7For let not that man think that he shall receive any thing of the Lord.

8A double minded man [is] unstable in all his ways.

During the trails of life is when we can become a terribly double minded man if we are not careful and lean on him by faith, asking for wisdom and allowing the joy of the Lord to carry us through.

Letting go and letting God do what he wants in your life is hard at times, but he promises in that same chapter in verse 12Blessed [is] the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him. Isn't it worth letting go of a few things here in this life and letting God take control so that one day you will be able to cast that crown of life at the feet of Jesus and thank him for allowing you to have the wisdom to make it through the trials of life with the joy and the faith that we needed.

Thank you my friend for pointing me to James. God and his marvelous comfort showed me exactly what I needed these last few days.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

Listening to HIM in 2010!

First and foremost I want to Thank the Lord for this past year in my life. I have learned somethings about my Savior that I have known in my head but now I know in my heart.

Jesus is such a loving and compassionate friend to me. I do believe that we serve a God that hates sin, and does judge sin, I believe he is the God of correction and that when his child messes up that he will spank them, but I have learned that his correction is not always the type of correction that we know or use as parents here on this earth. (We should definitely be more like him with our children) You know the goodness of God bringeth a man to repentance.

Romans 2 : 4 Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?


I believe if he has to he will get rough, but I do know that he is a longsuffering God and a very loving God. To many times in my life I have been quick to pass judgement, I have been quick to respond to what I think God ought to do in a situation or how God ought to handle a situation, (because you know.....I have been saved for years and I know a little about God and who he is, so I think I know how he should handle things.) WOW! Have I been wrong! With all the many times I have messed up this past year, God has continually shown me his grace and his forgiveness. I have often had this mind set that God is up there just waiting for us to mess up so he can pull the hammer down on us, but I have learned that he is full of compassion, full of forgiveness, and full of love towards me. Oh, if I could be more like him.

This past year we have been totally at the mercy of our Lord. We have depended on him for our every need. We have been in his watchful care for this entire year. You say,,,We'll, yea, we all are!" Yes, I agree but so many times when we are working for a paycheck it is easy to think we can work things out for ourselves. We have the ability decide a few things on our own, for instance when that paycheck comes on Friday (because you know it is coming) you can kinda determine in your mind what you are going to pay and you can kinda plan ahead or budget if you will. It is easy to leave God out of that part of our lives, because we think we have the smarts to do so. Well, when you do not know when the next check is coming, it is hard to plan ahead, so you just have to lean on the Lord day by day (and check the mailbox). Which has been an awesome experience to see God supply your every need.

FOR EXAMPLE:
A couple of months ago we had a husband and wife family come through and visit our church, they are truck drivers and they travel the whole U.S. As most of you know me, I do not know a stranger and I enjoyed getting to know these Kindred Spirits. They were both so sweet and we just hit it off. The husband asked me that night if he could have our email so they could keep up on Mike's case and so they could pray for us. What a blessing! We started corresponding through email. I was thrilled to have people with a heart like them praying about Mike's case and about his health. It is nice to know people are really praying for you.
The week before Thanksgiving this blessed lady sent me an email asking me for my address and said she wanted to send me something. A week later while we were in Kansas she sent us a card with a $150.00 in it for a Thanksgiving feast but since the Lord had already supplied our feast in Kansas, I was thrilled to be able to pay our November car payment.
Last night after being out of town for the holidays our pastor's wife gave us another Christmas card from this precious couple. When we got home it had $100.00 check in it for Christmas.
WOW! Do you know why I say WOW? Cause Zac has to be in Bowling Greene this next week and we just paid the rest of the months bills and we were out of money and did not know where the gas money was going to come from to get him there for his ride back to college. Once again the Lord supplied the need just when we needed it.
God has shown us that he does not need to use people we know, he does not need to use the wealthy people of this world, he uses the way that brings him the most Glory.
We are closing this year out and can say that He has once again met our bills for the month of December and we had a great Christmas to boot! TO GOD BE THE GLORY GREAT THINGS HE HAS DONE!

As I enter into this new year, I want to be more like Christ, I want to be more understanding with people, I want to be more tolerable, I want to be full of love toward the lost world, I want people to see Jesus in me and most of all I want to allow my ear to be tuned toward my Father's voice so that when he wants to use me like he has used so many people over this past year that I too may be used to help meet someone else's need. Isn't that what our call is? How can God reach the lost or help someone in need, if he cannot use us?

Can you imagine if each of us were just sensitive to the Lord's voice?..............
"Hand them a tract."
"Tell them about me."
"Give them $20.00."
"Give that person a hug."
"Ask them to forgive you."

You may never know what need you may fulfill in someone's life by just listening for his voice.

DO YOU HEAR WHAT I HEAR?

Bless each and everyone of you for being a blessing to us this year and thank you so much for following me through this journey of learning about my Savior.

We are Forever His,

Rebecca

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Borrowed Devotional

A friend shared this devotional with me and as she is beginning a new avenue or direction in her life, she felt the Lord had a sense of humor with allowing this mornings devotion to be so directed to her life.
I am so thankful that God speaks to the hearts of his children and allows us to be comforted, encouraged, and gives us the strength to continue on when we just do not understand what he is doing in our lives.
I am thankful she sent this devotional to me this morning, I am hoping that maybe this is a hint that things are getting ready to change for us. That the end of a thing is going to be better than the beginning. Praise the Lord! He has begun a good work in us all!

http://www.blueletterbible.org/devotionals/me/view.cfm?Date=12/30&Time=am


Charles Haddon Spurgeon
December 30th
Morning Reading

"Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof." — Ecclesiastes 7:8

Look at David's Lord and Master; see His beginning. He was despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. Would you see the end? He sits at His Father's right hand, expecting until His enemies be made his footstool. "As He is, so are we also in this world." You must bear the cross, or you shall never wear the crown; you must wade through the mire, or you shall never walk the golden pavement. Cheer up, then, poor Christian. "Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof." See that creeping worm, how contemptible its appearance! It is the beginning of a thing. Mark that insect with gorgeous wings, playing in the sunbeams, sipping at the flower bells, full of happiness and life; that is the end thereof. That caterpillar is yourself, until you are wrapped up in the chrysalis of death; but when Christ shall appear you shall be like Him, for you shall see Him as He is. Be content to be like Him, a worm and no man, that like Him you may be satisfied when you wake up in His likeness. That rough-looking diamond is put upon the wheel of the lapidary. He cuts it on all sides. It loses much—much that seemed costly to itself. The king is crowned; the diadem is put upon the monarch's head with trumpet's joyful sound. A glittering ray flashes from that coronet, and it beams from that very diamond which was just now so sorely vexed by the lapidary. You may venture to compare yourself to such a diamond, for you are one of God's people; and this is the time of the cutting process. Let faith and patience have their perfect work, for in the day when the crown shall be set upon the head of the King, Eternal, Immortal, Invisible, one ray of glory shall stream from you. "They shall be Mine," saith the Lord, "in the day when I make up My jewels." "Better is the end of a thing than the beginning thereof."

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Our Christmas letter 2009






We have been Refined in 2009



Merry Christmas! December 2009


This past year in the life of the Estep’s


As most of you know Mike has had to file for disability and it has now been approx. 14 months since we have had any income. We would have to say that this year has been a hard year along with the most rewarding year of our lives.

God has proven himself to us in ways that we could have never imagined. (A red Sea if you will). Beginning in November of 2008 the Lord began to prove that he was going to take care of us. Each month that past He was faithful to provide our needs, whether through tax returns, the sale of our vehicle or just the kindness of a fellow brother or family member lending a hand. God has given us free wood both winters so far and has supplied every toiletry need that we have had….Now you think why would you put that in there? Have you ever gone without an income? Have you ever considered the thought of going without toilet paper? Well, just so you know, we didn’t have to. Praise the Lord! God has taught us to trust him with our every need.


Ending this year out and as we reflect back, We stand amazed at what God has done for us. He has not only supplied our every need but also on top of that he has given us an all expense paid trip to Gatlinburg for 3 days, an all expense paid trip to Kansas for Thanksgiving. (paid for by 7 or 8 young students) and several trips to Ohio to spend time with family.


Besides all of the material things that God has done for us, The thing that we appreciate the most that the Lord has done for us is that Sarah, Jordan and Seth have all grown so much in their walk with the Lord. Sarah and Seth have each began to play the guitar and base this year and the three of them sing together as a group now. They long to be at church to be involved in their ministry.


Corey and Zac have been attending Heartland Bible Baptist College and we thank God for their desire to pursue God’s will and direction in their lives. Each of the boys were able to travel all summer. Corey traveled with GloryBound (singing group from Heartland) and Zac traveled with the VBS team and was able to see over 100 children come to know the Lord. Praise the Lord.


God has taken us to the backside of a mountain in Southern Kentucky and put us out in the country in the cutest little house that we have ever lived in and has loved on us the whole year long. We thank God for the way he has revealed himself to us this year and the work he has done in each of our hearts.

Mike has the third phase of his disability coming up in Feb. 2010, We ask each of you to pray that it will be settled and we can rejoice that this phase of our life is over. Please pray that we will hold strong the faith, as we think about all the many miracles that God has done for us, our hearts still seem to reflect the same attitude at times as the Israelites did after the huge miracles that God did for them.


We pray that this past year has been as rewarding for you, as it has been for us.

Please visit Becky's blog link below for further information as to how the Lord has

taken care of us through this past year.



We are Forever His,


Mike, Becky,
Corey, Zac, Sarah, Seth and Jordan
It is me,
Mrs. E.
Come Visit my blog
http://thelifeofachristianfamily.blogspot.com/

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Am I a Mary or a Martha?

This morning as I was reading my devotions in John Chapter 11, I really asked the Lord to speak to my heart as I read. I put myself into the story and began to think about the scene and how each of the people must have felt in the story, when I began to ponder how Mary and Martha must have felt when they called for Jesus to come and he didn't come and their brother died. I thought they must have felt like Jesus didn't care enough to come when they called.
I read in Vs 20 how that when Jesus finally did come that Mary sat still in the house. Vs 20 Then Martha, as soon as she heard that Jesus was coming went and met him: but Mary sat still in the house.
I read how when he did come Martha ran to Jesus and even spoke those words. Vs. 21 Then said Martha unto Jesus, Lord, if thou hadst been here, my brother had not died.
Each one responded differently when Jesus finally did come. Then I began to ponder my own actions when things do not go as I think they should. Do I run to the Lord and ask him why?, or do I just sit and ponder how things should have been?
Martha went to the Lord and spoke to him and told him that she knew if he hadst been there her brother would not have died, she also told him that whatsoever thou wilt ask of God, God will give it thee. Even through all the adversity Martha was still claiming truth and in the next couple of verses Christ spoke more truth to her about him being her Savior. Oh when we get a good glimpse of who our Savior really is, it will help us to go on and also encourage others to go on.
I believe our lack of faith keeps us from running to the Lord. We get defeated and we think what is the use, the situtation is too big or to far gone. (Lazarus was dead for goodness sake!)
I thought as I read on when Martha ran back to the house, she told Mary that The Master is come and calleth for her. No where did I read that Jesus told Martha that he wanted to see Mary, but I believe Martha got some help by just hearing the Lord that she knew Mary needed to hear him too.
Maybe Mary felt like the Lord didn't care about her, maybe she felt angry that he didn't come when they called for him, maybe she had lost some of her faith in him since he didn't come when he called, I do not know why Mary stayed in the house and didn't run to Jesus like Martha did, but once Martha told Mary that Jesus calleth for her, Vs 29.. she arose quickly, and came unto him.
Sometimes we just need to be reminded that the Lord wants us to come to him.
In verse 32, as soon as Mary saw him, she fell down at his feet, saying unto him, Lord, if thou hadst been here, my brother had not died.
Maybe one of the reasons Mary did not come to Jesus is that she was ashamed at what was truly in her heart, but we see here that as soon as she came to him, her heart was revealed. Do we not go to the Lord, because we are ashamed? I think I have been guilty.

You know as I read about how Jesus responded to Mary, He didn't rebuke her for her feelings, He didn't condemn her, He had compassion on her situation, then He fixed it.
How many times do we carry our burdens without taking them to the one that can fix them. He is moved with compassion, he understands our situations of not understanding, and he wants to help us with those burdens.

Are you a Martha, that runs to Jesus even when you do not understand the situation, and claim scripture?
Are you a Mary that sits and ponders what could have been, or what should have been?

In the next Chapter verse 3 Then took Mary a pound of ointment of spikenard, very costly, and anointed the feet of Jesus, and wiped his feet with her hair: and the house was filled with the odour of the ointment.
I believe that through this whole trial that we read about in Chapter 11, Mary learned something about her Savior that she didn't know before and we find that she had a greater love for him and worshiped him with her whole heart. SHE SEEN JESUS RAISE LAZARUS FROM THE DEAD! Is anything to hard for God? I believe through that trial it made her love him more because she knew more about who he is through her time of suffering.
Philippians 3:10
THAT I MAY KNOW HIM, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death;

I can relate to this whole story and as I read this chapter this morning my heart broke and the tears began to flow as I saw myself being a Mary. I have allowed at times my heart to question what the Lord is doing in our lives, I have at times walked away from him not wanting to go to him for the shame that I felt in my heart about how I have allowed my heart to be upset with this situation that we are in.
It has been 14 months since we have had NO INCOME! My husband has filed for disability and cannot work, He has the medical card which is much needed for all his medical needs and if I work he looses that, we have literally been backed into a corner to trust the Lord. I will say that our bills are paid enough to get us through each month without loosing everything, he has suppplied our every (NEED).
I do not understand why we have gone through all of this, but I do know one thing, I have learned more about my savior's love for me than I have ever known before.
He has shown me that he loves me and will take care of me and even hug me when I need hugs. This has been a hard year for us, and at times I am rather ashamed at how I have acted, but I would never change anything that I have gone through.
I have a greater appreciation for who God is, I have stronger faith in him and his promises than I ever have, My favorite verse has been put to the fire.
1:2 In hope of eternal life which God that cannot lie, promised before the world began.
I know more today that My God Cannot lie than I have ever known before.

When I see the compassion that the Lord had on Mary and Martha and was moved to tears, it made me know that the Lord feels that same way about me when he sees me struggling and hurting. I am so thankful for a God that cares and weeps for me and is moved with compassion.
So after much consideration I realize that I am often a Mary, but I desire so strongly to be a Martha.

Who are you?

Saturday, November 14, 2009

A very special giveaway.

As most of you know, my family has recently began singing and learning to play instruments. I came across this giveaway on the SONGS OF FAITH blog.
She is giving away a few things to choose from.
Please stop by and visit her site. I am sure you will be glad you did so.

http://songsoffaith.blogspot.com/2009/10/first-ever-giveaway.html

I am Forever His,

Rebecca

Friday, November 13, 2009

Visited Crown College in Tenn. Today.

We as a church family went to Crown College today. The facilities are beautiful.
They have designed a memorial hall there on campus and the information that is on display is too much to take in, in the short amount of time that we had today. I thank God for what is taking place there on that campus.
We were able to take a tour of the campus and sit in on a lecture, (my first) I did not attend college, but being there made me envious of the opportunity that has been given to these young people.
We had lunch and then we were able to sit in on their choir practice. I think I had ten thousand goose bump chiefs running up and down my legs while that choir sang. They have a very talented and disapplined choir.

We were able to hear Randy Thomas preach and another young man that was a graduate. Their messages were very challenging and encouraged those of us as a whole to follow God's will for our lives.

Here is a joke that one of the preachers told today.


This man owned a drug store and he needed to run somewhere real quick, He was hesitant about leaving the new sales clerk alone but chose to ignore his doubt in this young man.
While he was gone another man came in with a terrible cough and the young clerk did everything he could to help this man with this awful cough.
The Store clerk came back and said "How did things go?" The young man said things went wonderful, about that time the store clerk noticed a man in the corner all bent over. He said Is he alright? The young clerk said "Well, of course, he came in with a terrible cough and I cured him. Oh really what did you give him? he said I gave him a SUPER laxative, the Owner said Laxative doesn't cure a cough! he said it sure does, he is scared to death to cough!


****Any of you that know my husband, knows that this will be in his archive of jokes for future reference.

We are praying now for direction for the rest of the little ones in the nest.
You know they are not staying little and I know they will be spreading their wings soon, I think they have begun to flap them with anticipation, so we want to be sure when they take that flight that it is in the right direction.

Crown College is worth the visit.

The college link.
http://thecrowncollege.com/

The Church link
http://templebaptistchurch.com/

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

A Pleasant Experience

I have been working hard to find a new look for my blog, I have tried this template and that template and it has driven me crazy. I am so glad that when God the Father begins to change us he doesn't have to try this or that, he knows exactly what he is doing, he knows exactly who he is trying to make us look like, the perfect template per say Jesus Christ. One of the problems I was having in making the changes is that the colors I like so well, hurt even my eyes to sit and read, so I knew that the reading experience would not be pleasant to my visitors also.
Our heavenly Father knows that the things that we have in our life today that he is bidding us to change is hurting the cause of Christ and is not allowing people to have the full effect of who Jesus is and may not be a pleasant reading experience by others.
Our lives should be lived to bring honor to the Father. If there is something that he is bidding us to change in our lives, it is so much easier to yield to those changes rather than to fight them.
I was talking to my boys and we were talking about valleys and so many of our valleys are brought on in our lives by simply not yielding to that still small voice that is bidding us to change. He is always bidding us to follow his word, and when we choose not to obey then we not only hurt us but we hurt others around us in the process.
I have made these changes to allow my blog to be a more pleasant reading experience to you, now it is our turn to change those things that the Lord is dealing with us about to allow our lives to be a pleasant reading experience to others also.

This is somewhat of a quote by Sammy Allen that I just heard from an evangelist last week.

"A Man that Will scarcely make a vow to God will scarcely do anything for God."

Pss.37:5
Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Do Tell!

Please leave me a comment to let me know if you like my new design on my blog or is it hard to read.
I like the colors but I am afraid it might be to much eye candy.

Thanks for your comments.

I am forever His,

Rebecca

Saturday, November 7, 2009

HUGE BLESSING!

I received a phone call tonight that turned out to be a HUGE blessing.
My son Zac called and said that the young people that were in our churches in Kansas have pulled their money together to pay our way to Goodland, KS. where all of them will be gathering for Thanksgiving.
All of these 8 young people are still in school. 2 in high school and 6 in college.

The biggest reason for them doing this was not only to see us, but that we would be able to spend time with our boys for Thanksgiving.

We had talked about wanting to go there, but there is no way for us to come up with the money. O ME OF LITTLE FAITH! Which in reality I do not have anyway, but MY GOD DOES!

I just felt it was not important enough for God to give that when we have other pressing issues right now.
We have $7.00 to our name and all of Novembers bills due except Rent.
I feel like this was a big hug from the Lord because once again I had fallen into fretting over our situtation. He showed me that if he will give me the deep down desire of my heart (willing to do without) things over and above than he will take care of the necessities.

It is truly a miracle that God would supply the money for us to go but the biggest blessing is that these young people and God love us enough to do this for us. I love these youngens so much.

My hubby is going to spend some time praying about whether God wants us to go or not.
I have prayed and asked God to supply, these young people have been praying for God to supply (two of the girls are going to give Plasma this week to raise money to give us, one of which is my future DIL.)
I think it is an answer to prayer, but I know it is wise to always pray about everything.

PLEASE PRAY For God's perfect will, I am willing to follow whatever the Lord leads.
But I sure hope he leads us to Goodland.......*sigh* and fingers crossed. ;0)

Good News!

We watch the mailbox every day hoping to get news about Mikes disability. We pray could today be the day Lord? Will you send it today Lord?
We have often raced to the mailbox.
I love to get mail and now my children love it too.

WELL, GUESS WHAT! TODAY WAS THE DAY!

Mike got a notice from the lawyer, his hearing has been set! We are in the third and final stage of his disability.

We were hoping to get everything done before the end of the year but his hearing is sceduled for Feb 17th 2010.
We are just glad to know when it is. The not knowing is hard. Now we have a time. We can actually count down!!!!!!

I thank God that he has carried us this far and will not leave us now. I am excited to see how he will supply our needs. That will take us into 17 months I just thank God that most cases take atleast 2-5 years to even get where we are at.
God is so good to us. I just praise him for the good news today!



I am forever His,
Rebecca

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

We are still waiting....

Not really any new updates to mention, we are in the third phase of the disability and still have not heard anything about the hearing date. Sometimes it can really get frustrating just waiting. But according to God's word, There are 190 times that wait is in the Bible. God seem to take people to where he wanted them to do something then he would say wait.
Over and over in the word of God men were told to go to the edge of the city and wait, or they were told they were called to do a work for the Lord and then told to wait upon that calling.
One of the hardest things as a Christian is not to get ahead of God. So many times in our lives we find ourselves waiting.
Waiting to be old enough to drive, waiting to graduate, waiting on direction for our lives. Waiting on that perfect mate that God has for you, Waiting on the special baby to enter the world, waiting on the ministry that God has for you, waiting on that perfect job, waiting, waiting, waiting.
So many of these decisions that we wait on would become disasterous if we were not to wait, Example...quit school, drive without license, I think you get my point.
We have so many things we can learn if we will learn to wait upon the Lord and his timing of things.
If you ever need encouragement to wait, Just read Psalms and realize that God blesses our waiting upon him.
Psalms 40:[1] I waited patiently for the LORD; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry.
Psalms 52:[9] I will praise thee for ever, because thou hast done it: and I will wait on thy name; for it is good before thy saints.

When I read this last Psalm, I was reminded of a young man that recently got married, he is 31 years old and has waited on God for the right wife. He has now reaped the benefit of the blessings of having that perfect mate that God intended for him to have. No doubt at times in his life he wanted to get ahead of God, but as it says in this verse "for it is good before thy saints." His testimony has been a blessing to so many saints, that others can see that God gets the Glory and that it is worth waiting upon the Lord no matter how long it takes.

This concept is such a foreign concept to most people in our world today, we want to fix our situations, we want to make it all better, we want to find that perfect mate, we want things to be smooth.
When we first started into this trial, We would sit and scratch our heads and say what in the world are we going to do, What can I do to make money? Where can I go get a job? What do you want us to do Lord? We were trying to do everything but sit and wait upon God. He was telling us over and over Be still and know that I am God, I cannot tell you how many times I heard preachers preach on that verse, or that verse would come up in my devotions or in a book that I was reading, Over and over the Lord just kept telling us to be still....THAT IS FOREIGN! How can we be still when we have no income and we do not know how our bills are going to be paid?
We've got to do something, right? No, God said be still.
Every door I tried to walk through, God closed it, so then finally after much frustration We sat still. Psalms 46: [10] Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.
This verse means more to me today than it ever has before, the part about knowing that I am God. God has shown himself to us in so many ways this past year.
If we will get still before the Lord and wait upon him, we will see a God that we have never seen before. If God tells you to wait, Wait!
Someone recently asked me to sit down and write up some of the things that the Lord has done for us this past year. When I began to write and figure out what all the Lord has done for us, I stood amazed in the miracle that God has performed in our lives. I was thinking we were in poverty until I figured up the money that God has given us this year. We are well above the poverty level for the year. He has paid our bills and been so faithful to us. If God wants you to be still, it probably means that he has something miraculous he wants to do in your life and you are going to miss out if you get ahead of God.
Is 41:[31] But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

When you wait upon the Lord and he shows himself to you it renews your strength and gives you new wings to fly and gives you the ability to take off running again when he says go, and then you can walk with him and not faint because you can look back and remember the times you could not walk and he carried you through.
I serve a God that I know more about at this point in my life than I ever knew before I began to sit still. Sometimes we are runing so hard to even be aware that he is really there.
Be Still and know that He is God.